Colorado Mountains

It was only for an hour, and only from a car window, and only from the back seat

But it was beautiful, breathtaking, mesmerizing, and I dare say awesome.

I cannot wait to live here.

Tired

Wow, how my blogs have been so serious. I'm not that serious a person, am I? Of course I throw that question out to the masses of people who don't read my blog and who don't know me at all. I never thought of myself as serious, but maybe I'm wrong about that.

I'm in Denver trying to get things together to move here, and I find myself anxious, but not in a good way. It's scary. Why shouldn't it be? But I can do this, right? Me. Hardwoman can start all over again without any help from anyone. The question is, do I want to? Why start alone when you can ask a friend for help? I'm not sure who to ask, but I'm sure there is someone.

I'll just have to look harder.

Is there anyone out there in blog land?

Strings

Are you Geppetto or the puppeteer?
Did you create me this crazy,
Or do you pull on the right strings?
Is there hope for my peace
Or am I doomed to need you forever?

If you had your way,
I would never run away.
You are on the other side of the world,
And yet I am still running.

I am running away
Into the arms of God,
Because I know, unlike you,
He won't pull on my strings too hard.

Broken Heart

My heart
My love
Why have you forsaken me?
Why have you plunged a sword into my heart?
Tears cannot fall; I have misplaced them
And with them my belief in us.
It's as if you have taken the most precious jewel
And tossed it into the depth of the sea-
My heart might as well be on Pluto;
It no longer beats in my chest.

What is that sound?
That cannot be my heart,
For I know for a fact that it is broken.

Be Like God

The purpose of my life: to show God to the world

How can I do that?!

By putting down my computer, and walking down the hall to help my mother clean my sister's room. I could show HER God right now.

Thankful

THANKFUL. This is what I am trying to be.

I want to be thankful for the distance he has put between himself and the memories we shared.
I want to be thankful for the in and out and in and out and in and out of everyday
I want to be thankful for starting over...even without anything with me but You.

Lord, I want to be thankful when my boss yells at me for something I should have known better.
Lord, help me be thankful for menstral cramps. Help me understand it's for my own good.
Lord, help me be thankful for now.

Lord, you know my selfish heart. You know that my flesh is crying out day after day "But what about me?!", and even as it continues I want you to know, I am continually thankful you are always there to say "No," to me.

Lord, you are always there to say, "I still love you."
And Lord, I want to continue to be here to say "Thank You," My Lord, My God.

My Savior. Thank You.