Lean not on your own understanding

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

I have beem meditating on this verse for some time now. The part "And lean not on your own understanding," has been my primary focus.

How much of my life have I stuggled with "Why God? Why?" Too much. Way way way too much. If I didn't understand why, then I was mad at God. I have been mad at God for more of my life than not. When something didn't go MY way, the next thing I thought was "Why God? Why?"

I can tell you why. Because God loves me. God loves YOU. Like in the movie Bruce Almighty, God says "Since when do people know what they want". How TRUE! God wants peace and love and joy for our lives...NONE of my efforts to get what my flesh wants has ever lead me to any of those things. Am I so powerful that I can go out and make the world give me what I want?

From official experience: NO. ABSOLUTLY NO.

So what is left to want? Should I not want anything, then? Again, the answer is, no. We all should stop listening to our flesh (and trust me....this AIN'T going to happen over night) and want God. Just want God. Why would we want anything else, anyways?? Nothing else will ever satisfy us. God is everything we could ever need.

I am struggling everyday with ignoring my flesh. I haven't had a sucessful day yet. I love Joyce Meyer (if you ever have the chance to visit her web site it's www.joycemeyer.org) and she says in a lot of her teachings "I'm not where I'm supposed to be, but thank GOD I'm not where I was."

Everyday. Just a little bit closer everyday. Lean on God; not on my own understanding.