Are you hungry for milk or solid food?

Hebrews 5:11 - 6:12

Heb 6:1 "Therefore let us leave the elementary teachings about Christ and go on to maturity,"

This passage and my reading today really hit home. I have been spending too much time "walking around the same mountain", instead of moving on in my walk with Christ.

For years now, I have always been "going through something right now." At first I was going through flight school, then I was going through the FRS, then I was moving to Hawaii to be in my first fleet squadron, then I was going on cruise, then I was returning from cruise, then I was dealing with that dark cloud I like to call my "personal problem", and now I'm going through something else.

It seems that I am always going through something that I want others to pity me for. That's what I have always been seeking: pity. I wanted people to feel sorry for me. Always the victim; never the savior. There is always something going on in my life that I want people to "give me a break" about. If someone would call me out, I would just say "Oh, you just don't understand." My mother does that all the time and it drives me crazy! Imagine what God must feel!

I have been sitting idle for too long! What am I waiting for? No time is going to be perfect. No person is going to be perfect. No situation is going to be perfect. It's not going to be spelled out for me. I keep saying to God, "Just show me and I'll go," while God is saying "Go, and then I will show you." It is time to grow up.

Why should I act like I need someone to show me, when there are people out there I need to show? I need to have more of that good-old fashioned faith. Faith in God. Faith in myself to do God's will. I know I can do it, so what's stopping me?

Whatever answers I can come up for that question, (fear, tired, lonely, yadda yadda yadda) nothing in this world is viable. I need to grow up. Move on. Start walking down that path with diligence and consistency. Nothing will ever be done in my life if I keep waiting for something to happen.

Now is the time to go.